How to put this right? Okay, I know: “I will be fine no matter what I am dealing with.” Such a hard thing to believe when I lay down in bed for the past couple of days, wearing the same pajamas, sweaty sheets, and messy hair. Even if I had made an effort, I might not have realized that it has been more than just a few days with these feelings. The funny thing is that I didn’t even remember what made me feel that way, but I couldn’t get out of bed. It might have been that conference that threw me off track, that conversation that really made me mad, or just the disappointment I saw in the mirror that wouldn’t reflect my goals but showed me empty eyes and a fragile soul.

Malaise was not telling me everything; it just gave me bad days, or more accurately, I was physically tired, but my mind went crazy with thoughts. “I think I am sad.” Sure, nothing to argue about, but I can suggest revising those thoughts. I had been sad before, and damn, that hurt like fire on an open wound; it brought tears that emptied my head, and threw me out of all senses as I had never breathed before.

“I think I am sick.” Sure, I might be right, but I can suggest looking for something that might help me release my pain, like fresh air, sun, and water. I had been sick before, and it wasn’t funny at all; I was conscious and aware that I was there, but the fever and the pain took me to a different dimension and threw me under the bus. My muscles ached, my head was spinning, and my powers were blinking low.

Malaise was that idea that I might miss someone and want to wait, but I can still leave without them. With malaise, I am not sick or sad, but I feel melancholic for the days we dreamed, for the nights we spent, and for the times we waited. It is discomfort, but it’s like an incomplete paragraph that needs to be finished; it doesn’t necessarily make the volume weaker, but it makes the story miss a part.

“The psychic plane is clouded over by emotions and thoughts and the general dullness and malaise that develops in our contemporary world through the social conditioning that most individuals experience in the modern era.”

— Frederick Lenz —

It was convenient for them to keep everyone in a malaise mood because that created confusion, and made me think I should be tired because there was no other way to get through my day. What changed the game was that I set my goals and looked for ascending rather than competing because even plants and animals did not survive competing for the same source of food, but rather have different niches that would provide what was necessary for their growth. It was my path, and I should go my way, malaise was just to keep me stuck and didn’t want me to grow. I released and ascended.

Games were made for players that would lose or win. We live in a period of time that are no players, because nobody wants you to win, even though they might cheat at any steps you take. Doesn’t even let you set up your checkers on the board, because if you win, they don’t know how to lose. They can be owners, government, friends, family, or anyone that have benefits from someone like you. Knowing that you will not even try to fight with the big beast, sets the table at thirty degrees angle. It is not obvious, it might be easily justified, but would never let you win. That creates malaise because we were born to fight for the game in front of us, which is an obvious game to play. Poor you! This game would never let you win, but only give the false impression that if you work harder and try better you will get to the top. But what you might not realize is that the winner stands alone. We don’t grow with other roots, but within us and with deeper search in our lives. Is convenient to keep everyone in a malaise mood, because that creates confusion, and makes you think you shall be tired because there is no other way to get through your day. Is your path, and you should go your way, malaise is just to keep you stuck and doesn’t want you to grow. Release and ascend.

“Someone can tell you all your life that you’re inferior, but it doesn’t matter until you accept it and allow for validation. Once validation takes place, it’s then that the colonial malaise sets in like smallpox.”

— M.B. Dallocchio

I released myself from the grip of malaise and allowed myself to ascend beyond the limitations imposed by others. It was time to break free from the game they wanted me to play, to challenge the unjust table they set for me, and to rise above their deceptive tricks. I realized that my power to win was not determined by their rules or their approval. I had the strength within me to set my own course and define my own success. I refused to be a mere player in their game, and instead, I became the creator of my own destiny. No longer influenced by their toxic words or manipulative tactics, I focused on my own growth and development. I nurtured my mind and soul with kind words, self-belief, and the wisdom of nature’s teachings.

Like a plant seeking its own niche in the ecosystem, I found my own path, my unique purpose, and my true identity. I embraced the fact that I didn’t need to compete with anyone else because I was on a journey of self-discovery and personal evolution. With every step forward, I felt the weight of malaise lifting from my shoulders. The more I embraced my own power and authenticity, the less their tricks affected me. I was no longer a puppet in their game but a sovereign being in charge of my life.

“Where there is chance of gain, there is also chance of loss. Whenever one courts great happiness, one also risks malaise.”

— Walker Percy

I found inspiration in nature, witnessing how each element played its role in harmony, without the need for competition. Trees grew tall without comparing themselves to others, and rivers flowed without seeking approval from anyone. My mind became a fertile ground for new ideas, creativity, and innovation. I discovered that by focusing on ascending rather than competing, I could unleash my full potential and make a positive impact on the world around me. I knew that my journey was not about winning against others but about conquering my own fears, doubts, and insecurities. I didn’t need external validation or acceptance; I only needed to believe in myself and my unique abilities. The more I embraced this mindset, the more I attracted like-minded individuals who supported my growth and encouraged me to be my best self. Together, we formed a community of empowered individuals, united by the desire to uplift and inspire one another.

So, to anyone who might have been stuck in a malaise, feeling weighed down by the games others played, I say this: break free from the illusion of competition, and ascend towards your own greatness. Embrace your uniqueness, nurture your mind with positive thoughts, and discover the limitless power within you. You have the ability to create your reality, shape your destiny, and transform this world for the better. Believe in yourself, for you are not a mere player; you are the architect of your life’s masterpiece. Let your light shine, for when you ascend, you inspire others to do the same. Together, we can rise above the games, united in our journey towards a brighter and more harmonious existence.

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